I’ve noticed that I don’t really post a lot these days, I think the main reason is that sitting down and writing the post that is needed to explain my life at the moment is just to exhausting even to think about… but then, because I hate not taking to you guys, and because your comments on my personal post is what keeps me sane when things are crazy or makes me smile when things are shit, I had this idea. So, presenting my life… the cliff-note version.
Let’s start with work:
They sold us to a private company, it sucks! Everyone is scared and angsty… that also sucks! My girls are being neglected… that sucks even more! Some people should never be allowed to work with people… but unfortunately they still do…. which just sucks big time!
Living with your mom and her boyfriend
I love you guy’s but stop the whole sick thing and go back to work!
I’m 26 (almost 27) years old I know how to do laundry and if you don’t like the way I do it, then you can bloody well do it yourself!
Stop nagging me about walking the dog at noon every day, I always walk him at one because at noon every god damn dog in the neighborhood is being walked!
Since I’m the one cocking I decide what I’m going to cook, you don’t want chicken then you make dinner!
What am I going to do with my life angst
What am I going to do with my life… angst, angst, angst…
I’m almost 27 I should know what I want to do with my life… angst, angst, angst…
I don’t know what I want to do… angst, angst, angst…
Should I go back to school… angst, angst, angst’
What should I study in school… angst, angst, angst…
Should I quit my job… angs, angst, angst,,,
I can’t quit my job… angst, angst, angst…
And so on…
Post Afrcia Blues
Pretty much gone now… almost, kind off, as much as it ever will be I guess.
it’s not that bad
I’m really ok, not angsting in a serious way, just being a drama-queen.
So, that’s about it. Well that was quick and painless I feel so much better, now I can start posting about unimportant things again.
I’m slowly starting to write again; I actually have two stories’ open at the moment hoping the going over what I’ve written so far will bring some inspiration. But since I’m not alone and haven’t been for like two months it’s kind of hard getting into the right porn mood. I just can’t write porn when my mom is sitting just a few feet away, granted din another room but still really close.
I hope to have some real writing time next week but you know how I am… I just, I love to write but damn it’s hard to actually sit yourself down and do it. Plus I’m freaking out a bit because my brain has been running this vivid Jared/Jensen porn scene in my head for weeks now and I’m not sure I’m ready for that… cheating on spike and angel… I don’t know…
See I have this plot idea…
Jared and Jensen are fighting like really, really fighting something is wrong and they can’t even understand why so finally someone who understands more then they do gets fed-up and gives them each a bag containing condoms, lube, a 500 dollar gift card to the local sex shop and a book called “gay sex for dummies” enter plot filled with complications, toppy!jared, bottom!jensen and then lot’s and lot’s of sex…
I don’t know yet but it feels kind of like when I had the idea for sexshop.com… but I don’t know, the SPN fandom scares the shit out of me, they’re all obsessed with “being in character” and “cannon” and “Jared is this way and Jensen is this way” like they really know what they’re like after seeing them in an interview. Basically all that stuff the spangel girls I’ve meet had gotten over or never been into when I came into the fandom so… I don’t know. Of course I realize that not everyone in the spn fandom is like that I have some great examples right here on my flist… maybe I’ll write a little and then just post it here and see what happens…
Well look, isn’t this just great, this was supposed to be a cliff-note post and now I’ve gone yapping way…
I hope everyone is doing ok. Enjoy your weekend.
Love
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Xenodike 